Sithen comments on the state of Ruatha

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Am not cross dressing like brother...yet. Have, however, attracted attention of a rather fascinated fae - yay me, still the prettiest!. "You have beautiful skin," indeed. Did not strip to show horrific scars across entire back - was sorely tempted, but could not think of decent reason. Also, older brother would be appalled - told her cute fae wanted to touch my hair and tattoos. She did not take it well - almost certainly jealous. Was told 'Not to go places with strangers who want to touch your skin'. Cue demented version of elven 'safety house' talk. Hilarious. Vaguely pouty. Fae was cute. Not sure what sex, however. Think probably boy.

Was told not to call boys attractive by brother. Look at crossdressing 'brother' and make funny noises to cover incredulous laughter. Did not, however, call brother 'screaming hypocrite' as tempted, as she is fast hand with cane and I do not wish to be bopped on head like young padawan.

Suspect likelihood of dating is now zero. Only of interest to worried healers and ethereally beautiful male fae - distinct lack of girls own species and age. Also, older brother is over protective and inclined to sit and stare at prospective girlfriends while reminding them she is tattooist with great understanding of pain. V.annoying, as am pretty and likely to be frustrated teenage boy for decades. Damn elven genetics.

Have been given warnings about stripping in public by healers, who have explained concept of nudity taboos amongst humans. Very odd, these humans. Funny little creatures. Almost all at least a foot shorter than me, which allows for pondering eternal elven question - What are bald patches?

Earlier this month, made big effort to explain to healer-girl how I got nice scars. Father loves me very much. V.strange - she burst into tears and had small fit of hysteria. Strange humans - maybe brother right about them all being lunatics. Explained to brother how I got nice scars. Father loves me very much. V.strange - she also burst into tears. Had rather larger fit of hysteria involving embarrassing scene in tavern. Must wear disguise next time I go there.

Am surrounded by insane people. Have never thought brother especially well balanced (obvious reasons - likes Pet Shop Boys and David Bowie far too much, even for elf), but am even more convinced now she has told me she had mad shnoogies with Warrior Caste nutter. Has been up in room for days getting drunk because Warrior left her in morning - silly haddock. Made offer to go give special toys to Warrior as symbol of interCaste friendship. Was told not allowed. V.disappointing. Also, not certain - is confusing - but reasonably sure brother is female, as was Warrior. Being told off for saying gratuitously pretty fae is cute seeming v.unfair.

Questioned this, was told 'You don't see ME calling boys cute, do you?'

Not...certain how to think of come back for that one. Instinctively feel this is slightly odd, but cannot argue with logic. Is all moot point, as demonstrated nice new toy to fae and he could not leave fast enough. Have heard that said about fae before, but not understood previously what leers and winking meant. Have unique and new perspective - yay me!

Mental note. Adolescence even more confusing than previously thought.